To the point where Im disappointed in myself. That must sound stupid, but I feel so down to the last piece of what I have to offer that Im just disappointing everyone. I have literally received emails from a teacher telling me that they’re disappointed and they call on me in class because they think I’m not longer filling my potential. Dramas no longer exciting, I feel like Im playing the say and hope method where I walk on stage and play the motions but I feel raw and tired. Even with Mr. L. It’s even difficult to feel anything towards him. Which was quite nice and calming at first, but now I feel boring and it feels like he literally just hangs around me to talk to my best friend. More like I just happen to be there. And school isn’t even on my list of priorities. Its just fallen off into some abyss.